Beehive Project

Do you ever wondering in your goal setting, or day dreaming (they both interchange with me frequently) that if you constantly look at the big stuff, big picture, important goal that maybe the little stuff gets lost? If the little stuff gets lost is it missed? Should it be? I think about that alot.

I remember being younger and looking for a four leaf clover, not sure why it brings good luck, maybe because its rare? Anyway, I would look forever it felt like, looking, looking, getting fustrated and then giving up and thinking, whatever! So stupid, stupid little clover! Who cares!! And then I would move on and mess with my doll’s hair for the 100th time. But my sister could look forever in the clovers! And finally could find one, a small four leaf one that my mom would hang on the refrigerator and smile and say, you now have good luck. I on the other hand would have done over 12 barbies updos and put them in full on dresses for the fantasy ball they were all attending in the backyard. 

I still think about that stuff as I’m older, I always think bigger, better, shinny, flashy, fun and fabulous!!! I want to see that I got a lot done in a hour. Not finding some stupid clover that was going to die anyway! I don’t even look at clovers anymore, way to busy, way to busy!! Is that wrong? Maybe, should I add it to my feeling guilty pile. I don’t think so? I don’t know. Now that I am 40 I feel like I should be thinking of the little joys in life and remembering the clovers, and being happy with setting a small simple goal and following thru on it and being peaceful. Peaceful with the little things in life, the simple clovers, the elusive four leaf clovers. 

But…….. then again…… I really, really really like doing big shinny fun things!!!! So this new year I’m not going to feel bad about being busy, and filling my life with big, fun, new huge things that are stop-your-heart fun, but kinda scary, new experiences and trying new things! I will fill my schedule and my days planning, and executing fun new things, and go to bed thinking of huge photoshoots, big career ideas, new experiences!!! Because why not?!

I have next year to feel guilty about being so busy that I don’t look for four leaf clovers anymore because I am to busy running as fast as I can to the next exciting, wonderful adventure ahead!!! 

I’m going to post something everyday. That is my goal. I am going to do it. Every year I have new year resolutions and they are usually the same every year. Lose weight (ugh), keep my house cleaner (double ugh), and be a more patient mother (major fail). Oh, yeah and be more organized. (never gonna happen)  But I optimistically truly believe that this year will be better, somehow I will have all my ducks in a row, everything will go according to plan, and I will finally be the best person that I should be. 

Well, its Jan 2 and I I’m already slipping. I know, I should give it the good old college try, but its tough! So every night I lay in bed and think tomorrow is another day, a do over, a try again, and I will keep saying this until 2013 comes along. And that is the joy of this journey of life. The optimistic view of, one day I will get it all together, one day that glorious day will come, one day. ;)

But instead I rush over to my salon, Beehive Beauty Shop and quickly take down the Christmas decorations late tonight, throw our tree in its box while some ornaments are still attached, put the stockings pilled up with the tree telling myself that this way I can find them easier. All while wondering where the weekend went. 

So here are my thoughts for tonight. Hope you can relate, or at lease pretend you do. ;)

jessica

Welcome to my blog, where I will take you on the journey of my life as a mother, wife, sister, daughter, hairdresser, business owner, and friend. The roller coaster, fly by the seat of your pants, totally fun day to day experiences from behind the chair to being at home to having dreams of much bigger things. :)

Jessica Steele